His name was Michael and, no this is not his real name. (You know who you are, consider me a forgiving soul for giving you and alias) We dated for four months which, when you are twelve, is pretty much a lifetime.
We had our own song (â€œI canâ€™t fight this feelingâ€ by REO Speedwagon), our own restaurant, (The Swensonâ€™s Ice cream Parlour on Mcphillips in Winnipeg) and even our own nicknames. (He called me â€œAli-catâ€) I should have known then and there that the boy lacked vision, but it was 1983 and I was a visibly awkward chubby girl raging through puberty. I could NOT be picky.
Michael was a nice guy with cute curly hair and he had the ultimate trump card. He LIKED me. Michael made me feel like I was perfect.
On June 7, 1983, he took me to his sisters wedding as his date. I can still remember the pink and grey dropped waist polka dot satin dress I wore. My hair was the perfect â€œsun-inâ€ orange and I even wore pink fish net tights to match. I had pink rhinestone earrings and a large pink bow on my purse. Overall I looked like a chubby version of Cindy Lauper and I felt perfect. We danced all night and drank whisky sours that Michael snuck us from the bar. On a magical night in June when Michael kissed my goodnight, he told me he loved me. I was Cinderella at the ball and his parentsâ€™ â€™82 Oldsmobile was my chariot.
But unlike a fairytale, real life has a morning after. Mine came the day after Michaelâ€™s sisters wedding when I had braces put on my teeth. The very next day, I returned from the orthodontistâ€™s office with a mouth full of metal, Michael took one look at his â€œiron Jawed angelâ€ and broke up with me immediately. Apparently the space between my two front teeth WAS the lesser of two evils.
When it came to a headgear and a bite guard, Michael COULD fight that feelingâ€¦
And yes dear reader, that is when it hit me. I had a BAD boyfriend. My boyfriend was not the Prince Charming I had imagined. He was a twelve-year-old boy who has the attention span of a homing pigeon. He was fleeting and self-centred. He wanted a date for his sisterâ€™s wedding not a lifelong partner with a smile less than perfect.
The decades have passed and my braces are long gone. Pink fishnet tights made a brief comeback and have returned to the fashion halls of fame. High school came and went and I realized that orange was not a good hair colour for me. â€œSun Inâ€ has been replaced with â€œLâ€™Orealâ€ and now instead of natural looking highlights, I strive for complete grey coverage.
But through it all I have realized that there have been quite a few BAD boyfriends. We have all had them.
I have realized that the only other constant in my life has been that I have always been on a diet. I started my first diet at the age of ten. My gym teacher proclaimed me fat and sent me home with a list of foods I could eat and a list of foods I was forbidden. From this cam the grapefruit diet of the early eighties followed by ten (yes count them, ten) Weight Watcherâ€™s membership, two Jenny Craigs and a Nutrisystem. Coupled with The Zone, South Beach, The GI Diet, Dr. Phil and Atkins, I like many of my North American sisters have been dieting for decades.
And it is only until recently that I have realized, my diet really is a metaphor for a bad boyfriend. When my diet and I first get together, we have a period of infatuation that borders on the absurd. I think my diet is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I canâ€™t imagine what I did before my diet came along. I will give up nights with friends and dinners out just to be with my diet. I will plan events around my dietâ€™s schedule and dream about the day when my diet and I finally achieve perfect bliss and I DO fit into my skinny jeans. I will walk into a room in my perfect size 28s, two hundred dollar boot cuts and my diet and I will make every bitch who every said we would not â€œmake itâ€ cringe with remorse.
But that does not happen. In reality, my diet makes me do all the work while it shits all over me. My diet is aloof and unattainable. It makes me reform my life and give up that which I love in exchange for a sense of self loathing that I could not even pay for. In short I will never measure up with my diet and so after about four weeks together, I know I have to break it off. Then of course comes the usual mourning/euphoria of being free again until I find a new diet to take on with the same gusto. We usually meet online or in a bookstore and pretty soon I am back on the same roller coaster ride. I am pimped out in a grey and pink polka dot dress, taking what I can get until I have braces put on my brains and I sober up.
But somehow, twenty odd years later, after bad boyfriends/diets, I woke up and got off the dysfunctional merry-go-round. Today things are different. I have spent the last eight years not on a DIET, but changing my lifestyle to be one where health comes first. Make no mistake, I am not about to give you another diet to â€œshack upâ€ with and spiral off out of control. I will however tell you a simplified version about what helped me get off the diet dating cycle and settle down with a relationship with food that makes me feel good about me and my health.
So if any relationship has a set of rules, here are mine:
So there you have it. Weâ€™ve all had our hearts broken, whether it was on the scale or at the roller rink. Weâ€™ve all had a diet or a man who made us the ultimate promise and then could not deliver. Make no mistake; I blame the Michaelâ€™s of the world as much as I blame the â€œlow carbâ€ craze. They could not help themselves. They were just doing what they were supposed to do.
By some cosmic curse my diet is supposed to be a BAD boyfriend.
How else would I have figured out how good a healthy lifestyle can be?